Dessa: Can we choose to fall out of love?
Dessa: Se lahko odločimo, da se odljubimo?
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collective called Doomtree.
po imenu Doomtree.
touring rapper and singer.
in pevka na turnejah.
this is what our shows look like.
naš šov zgleda takole.
There's a lot of sweating.
unintentional body checks onstage.
intentional body checks onstage.
popolnoma namernih trkov.
an intramural hockey game and a concert.
šolsko hokejsko tekmo in koncertom.
my own music as a solo artist,
kot solo umetnica,
more melancholy sounds.
the rough mixes of a new album,
grobo zmiksani novi album
but why is it always so sad?"
ampak zakaj je vedno tako žalostno?"
out with that you know that phrase?"
da poznaš to besedno zvezo?"
I've written so many sad love songs
toliko žalostnih ljubezenskih pesmi,
I need help with my breakup."
Rabim pomoč ob razpadu moje zveze."
and touring those songs for a long time,
in turnejah s temi pesmimi
was essentially romantic devastation.
niša v bistvu romantični obup.
had been written about the same guy.
napisala o istem tipu.
to sort ourselves out,
that I couldn't rebound
da se ne morem pobrati
to recover from so regularly.
it wasn't doing either of us any good,
od naju to ne koristi,
how to put the love down.
kako naj pozabim ljubezen.
named Dr. Helen Fisher,
po imenu dr. Helen Fisher,
been able to map the coordinates of love
uspelo zarisati koordinate ljubezni
if I could find my love in my brain,
lahko v svojih možganih našla ljubezen,
passes and whiskey."
Center for Magnetic Resonance Research.
resonanco na univerzi v Minnesoti.
with a sample size of one, me.
na enem samem primerku, meni.
of forest green scrubs,
is a big, tubular magnet
of deoxygenated iron in your blood.
železa v vaši krvi.
what parts of your brain
at any given moment.
are associated with a task,
z neko nalogo;
will always light up the same region,
vedno osvetlilo isto območje,
who just sort of resembled my ex-boyfriend
je na nek način podoben,
high-resolution images of my brain.
inside all of the wrinkles, essentially,
videli v vse gube
called the "brain skin rug."
imenovala 'možganska kožna preproga'.
when I looked at images of both men.
obnašajo, ko gledam slike obeh moških.
and when I looked at my ex,
in ko sem gledala svojega bivšega,
that we'd be able to find the love alone,
smo lahko našli ljubezen samo
to step on a scale fully dressed
stopila na tehtnico,
would be the weight of my clothing.
bila teža mojih oblačil.
we subtracted one from the other,
smo eno odšteli od drugega
that Dr. Fisher would have predicted.
ki jih je dr. Fisherjeva prej napovedala.
orange dot, the ventral tegmental area,
točki, v ventralno tegmentalnem območju,
is the anterior cingulate
is the caudates.
the data with her team
podatke s svojo ekipo
en sam diapozitiv.
my feelings for this dude.
čustva do tega tipa.
I was going to these outrageous lengths.
sem se lotila vsega tega.
felt like such a vindication,
but now I know exactly where."
a zdaj vem, kje točno."
who had her mark.
ki ima svojo tarčo.
on a course of treatment
was training my brain.
that we would train a muscle,
kot bi trenirali mišico,
and resilient enough
to my circumstances.
na mojo situacijo.
we would anticipate
we would ask that that muscle slow.
da se ta mišica upočasni.
viable, loving romantic relationship,
ljubečem romantičnem razmerju,
of my brain should engage,
viable, emotional, loving relationship,
ljubečem romantičnem razmerju,
just smaller than a dime
elektrod, majhnih kot kovanec za 5 centov,
to detect my brainwaves
moje možganske valove,
I could see my brain working in real time.
videla možgane delovati v resničnem času.
of my brain were hyperactive,
mojih možganov so bili hiperaktivni;
just those parts of my brain
samo tiste dele mojih možganov,
with the romantic regulation
v Fisherjevi študiji.
have to do or think anything.
nič narediti in nič misliti.
had to hold pretty still
in that healthy threshold,
operirali v zdravi mejni vrednosti,
or vibraphone music.
at roughly the speed of a gyro machine
rotirajo s hitrostjo, podobno hitrosti
v bistvu nezavedno.
the other things I had learned
česar sem se naučila,
my conscious mind.
my left calf muscle is doing,
to engage when I wobble to the right.
da naj ukrepa, ko se zamajam v desno.
don't know a lot about, like,
niso vedeli veliko o, recimo,
or the waveform of a ringing bell,
ali obliki valovanja zvoncev,
because the body paired the stimuli.
ker je telo reagiralo na spodbude.
Olman's fMRI machine,
in the interest of scientific rigor,
in v interesu znanstvene doslednosti
didn't know who was who,
kdo je kdo,
influence the results.
to analyze that second set of data,
comma, yes, question mark.
vejica, "ja?", vprašaj.
the desired result.
a moment to introspect,
trenutek, da sem se zazrla sama vase,
that I'd had at the outset.
ki sem jih imela na začetku.
of the Spotless Mind."
and amity and attraction and respect
prijateljstvo, privlačnost in spoštovanje
that you amass after long-term love.
ki se nakopičijo po dolgotrajni ljubezni.
had risen to the surface,
dvignila dobrohotna čustva
and the less-generous feelings
in manj prijazna čustva
a small thing in some way,
your wisdom teeth,"
in which I did those two things.
ti dve stvari, bi bilo res pomembno.
moj kavdat natisnil s 3D tiskalnikom.
it at the merch table at my shows.
na svojih nastopih.
of friends back in Minneapolis,
prijateljic iz Minneapolisa,
from the ceiling at my big shows.
na mojih velikih nastopih.
to better understand love,
priložnost bolje razumeti ljubezen,
buried somewhere deep within your skull,
pokopan nekje globoko v tvoji lobanji
and you make each other happy,
in drug drugega osrečujeta,
Reviewed by Klavdija Cernilogar
ABOUT THE SPEAKERDessa - Rapper, singer and writer
Dessa is an internationally touring rapper, singer and writer who built a career by defying genre conventions and audience expectations.
Why you should listen
As a writer, Dessa has contributed to the New York Times, National Geographic Traveler and literary journals across the United States. As a musician, she's recorded critically acclaimed studio albums, co-composed for a 100-voice choir, collaborated with full orchestras and contributed to The Hamilton Mixtape on the invitation of Lin-Manuel Miranda.
On stage and on the page, Dessa's work is driven by an interest in finding unexpected connections -- between heartache and neuroscience, aerodynamics and grief, or simply between two people who live far away and in disparate circumstances. Her delivery is crafted to balance wit and tenderness, intellectual rigor and a poetic sensibility.
Dessa started out in Minneapolis, Minnesota as a member of the Doomtree hip-hop crew, a tight-knit group known for their explosive live shows, innovative sound and fiercely independent business model. For years, the seven-member crew shared stages, hotel rooms and head colds building an international following one sweaty show at a time. Dessa's work within the collective and as a solo artist earned several entries on the Billboard Top 200 charts (Chime, Parts of Speech and All Hands). Alone or with Doomtree, she's performed at Lollapalooza, Glastonbury, SXSW, velvet-lined theaters in LA and New York, punk venues in Central Europe, black box rooms from Tijuana to Beijing and once while standing on a wooden chair in South Africa. According to the LA Times, Dessa "sounds like no one else" and was called "a national treasure" by NPR's All Songs Considered.
Since her teenage years, however, Dessa wanted to become a published writer. So while recording and touring as a musician, she continued to write poetry, essays and short stories. Under the Doomtree banner, she began printing short books, some barely larger than a matchbook. In 2013, Doomtree Press published Spiral Bound, a collection of poetry and prose. In 2015, Dessa partnered with Rain Taxi on a poetry chapbook titled A Pound of Steam. On the strength of that collection, a New York literary agent telephoned; within a few years, Dutton Books (Penguin Random House) published her first book-length collection of essays, My Own Devices: True Stories from the Road on Music, Science, and Senseless Love, named one of the best books of 2018 by both NPR and Amazon. She also became a frequent radio contributor: on behalf of Minnesota Public Radio, she's interviewed best-selling authors in front of live audiences (most recently talking with Michael Pollan about his exploration into psychedelic drugs). At WNYC's The Greene Space, she served as Artist in Residence, designing a series called HEARTBREAKERS that investigated research on love, sex and determinism with both scientists and musicians.
In recent years, Dessa partnered with the Grammy-winning Minnesota Orchestra to stage six sold-out performances at Minneapolis's Orchestra Hall (all arranged by composer/musician Andy Thompson and conducted by Sarah Hicks). The Minnesota Orchestra and Dessa cut a live record together in March of 2019, Sound the Bells: Recorded Live at Orchestra Hall, slated for release in November of 2019.
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