Dessa: Can we choose to fall out of love?
Desa (Dessa): Možemo li da odaberemo da više ne budemo zaljubljeni u nekog?
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collective called Doomtree.
pod nazivom Doomtree.
touring rapper and singer.
reperka i pevačica.
this is what our shows look like.
ovako naši nastupi izgledaju.
There's a lot of sweating.
unintentional body checks onstage.
telesnih kontakata na sceni.
intentional body checks onstage.
telesnih kontakata na sceni.
an intramural hockey game and a concert.
lokalnih mečeva u hokeju i koncerata.
my own music as a solo artist,
sopstvenu muziku kao solista,
more melancholy sounds.
the rough mixes of a new album,
neobrađene mikseve novog albuma,
but why is it always so sad?"
ali zašto je uvek tako tužno?”
out with that you know that phrase?"
pa znaš za taj izraz?”
I've written so many sad love songs
toliko tužnih ljubavnih pesama
I need help with my breakup."
Treba mi pomoć zbog raskida.”
and touring those songs for a long time,
sa tim pesmama dugo vremena,
was essentially romantic devastation.
u suštini bio ljubavni očaj.
had been written about the same guy.
napisana o istom momku.
to sort ourselves out,
da izgladimo stvari,
that I couldn't rebound
što ne mogu da se oporavim
to recover from so regularly.
da se ljudi redovno oporavljaju.
it wasn't doing either of us any good,
ni za jedno od nas,
how to put the love down.
kako da ugasim ljubav.
named Dr. Helen Fisher,
žene po imenu dr Helen Fišer,
been able to map the coordinates of love
uspela da ocrta koordinate ljubavi
if I could find my love in my brain,
ako bih pronašla ljubav u mom mozgu,
passes and whiskey."
za prolaz iza scene i viski.”
Center for Magnetic Resonance Research.
with a sample size of one, me.
na uzorku od jedne osobe: mene.
of forest green scrubs,
is a big, tubular magnet
je veliki magnet u obliku tube
of deoxygenated iron in your blood.
deoksidizovanog železa u vašoj krvi.
what parts of your brain
koji delovi vašeg mozga
at any given moment.
u bilo kom trenutku.
sa određenim zadatkom,
are associated with a task,
will always light up the same region,
će uvek da osvetli istu oblast,
who just sort of resembled my ex-boyfriend
koji nekako liči na mog bivšeg,
high-resolution images of my brain.
u izuzetno visokoj rezoluciji.
inside all of the wrinkles, essentially,
pogledamo sve nabore u unutrašnjosti,
called the "brain skin rug."
nazvala „krzneni tepih”.
when I looked at images of both men.
moj mozak kad gledam slike oba muškarca.
i kada sam posmatrala bivšeg,
and when I looked at my ex,
that we'd be able to find the love alone,
mogli smo da otkrijemo samu ljubav,
to step on a scale fully dressed
ako bih stala na vagu obučena,
would be the weight of my clothing.
bi bila težina moje odeće.
we subtracted one from the other,
i oduzeli jedne od drugih,
that Dr. Fisher would have predicted.
koje je dr Fišer predskazala.
orange dot, the ventral tegmental area,
malenoj narandžastoj tački,
is the anterior cingulate
je anteriorni cingularni korteks,
is the caudates.
the data with her team
podatke sa svojom ekipom
samo jedan slajd.
my feelings for this dude.
moja osećanja prema tom momku.
I was going to these outrageous lengths.
ovoliko nečuveno daleko.
felt like such a vindication,
se činilo kao potvrda,
but now I know exactly where."
ali sad znam i tačno gde.”
who had her mark.
koji je naciljao svoju metu.
on a course of treatment
da se podvrgnem tretmanu
po imenu Penidžin Grejsfajer
was training my brain.
da treniramo moj mozak.
that we would train a muscle,
kao što bismo trenirali mišić
and resilient enough
i dovoljno otporan
to my circumstances.
na moje okolnosti.
we would anticipate
we would ask that that muscle slow.
da taj mišić uspori.
viable, loving romantic relationship,
održivoj, privrženoj ljubavnoj vezi,
bi trebalo da budu angažovani,
of my brain should engage,
viable, emotional, loving relationship,
privrženoj ljubavnoj vezi,
just smaller than a dime
nešto manjih od novčića,
to detect my brainwaves
da detektuju moždane talase
I could see my brain working in real time.
kako moj mozak radi u realnom vremenu.
of my brain were hyperactive,
koji delovi mog mozga su hiperaktivni,
just those parts of my brain
samo one delove mozga
with the romantic regulation
sa regulacijom zaljubljenosti,
u Fišerinoj studiji.
have to do or think anything.
da radim niti mislim o bilo čemu.
had to hold pretty still
in that healthy threshold,
u zdravim granicama,
or vibraphone music.
zvuk harfe ili vibrafona.
at roughly the speed of a gyro machine
kako se rotira otprilike brzinom žiroskopa
u suštini da bude nesvesno.
na druge stvari koje sam naučila
the other things I had learned
my conscious mind.
my left calf muscle is doing,
mišić mog levog lista radi
to engage when I wobble to the right.
kako da reaguje kada se nagnem desno.
don't know a lot about, like,
ne znaju mnogo, na primer,
or the waveform of a ringing bell,
ili obliku talasa zvuka zvona,
because the body paired the stimuli.
jer je telo spojilo stimulanse.
Olman's fMRI machine,
doktorice Šeril Olman,
in the interest of scientific rigor,
zarad naučne verodostojnosti,
nisu znali koja je čija slika,
didn't know who was who,
influence the results.
to analyze that second set of data,
da izanalizira drugi skup podataka,
comma, yes, question mark.
zarez, da, upitnik.
the desired result.
a moment to introspect,
that I'd had at the outset.
koja sam imala na početku.
of the Spotless Mind."
and amity and attraction and respect
naklonost, privlačnost, poštovanje
that you amass after long-term love.
koja se nagomilaju nakon duge veze.
had risen to the surface,
osećanja isplivala na površinu,
and the less-generous feelings
kao i ona manje zahvalna osećanja
a small thing in some way,
your wisdom teeth,"
in which I did those two things.
po kom ću da obavim te dve stvari.
da mi u 3D odštampaju kaudatu.
it at the merch table at my shows.
na štandovima za suvenire na nastupima.
of friends back in Minneapolis,
par prijatelja iz Mineapolisa,
ogromnu disko kuglu -
from the ceiling at my big shows.
na mojim većim nastupima.
to better understand love,
da bolje razumem ljubav,
buried somewhere deep within your skull,
zakopanih negde duboko u vašoj lobanji.
and you make each other happy,
i usrećujete jedno drugo,
Reviewed by Ivana Krivokuća
ABOUT THE SPEAKERDessa - Rapper, singer and writer
Dessa is an internationally touring rapper, singer and writer who built a career by defying genre conventions and audience expectations.
Why you should listen
As a writer, Dessa has contributed to the New York Times, National Geographic Traveler and literary journals across the United States. As a musician, she's recorded critically acclaimed studio albums, co-composed for a 100-voice choir, collaborated with full orchestras and contributed to The Hamilton Mixtape on the invitation of Lin-Manuel Miranda.
On stage and on the page, Dessa's work is driven by an interest in finding unexpected connections -- between heartache and neuroscience, aerodynamics and grief, or simply between two people who live far away and in disparate circumstances. Her delivery is crafted to balance wit and tenderness, intellectual rigor and a poetic sensibility.
Dessa started out in Minneapolis, Minnesota as a member of the Doomtree hip-hop crew, a tight-knit group known for their explosive live shows, innovative sound and fiercely independent business model. For years, the seven-member crew shared stages, hotel rooms and head colds building an international following one sweaty show at a time. Dessa's work within the collective and as a solo artist earned several entries on the Billboard Top 200 charts (Chime, Parts of Speech and All Hands). Alone or with Doomtree, she's performed at Lollapalooza, Glastonbury, SXSW, velvet-lined theaters in LA and New York, punk venues in Central Europe, black box rooms from Tijuana to Beijing and once while standing on a wooden chair in South Africa. According to the LA Times, Dessa "sounds like no one else" and was called "a national treasure" by NPR's All Songs Considered.
Since her teenage years, however, Dessa wanted to become a published writer. So while recording and touring as a musician, she continued to write poetry, essays and short stories. Under the Doomtree banner, she began printing short books, some barely larger than a matchbook. In 2013, Doomtree Press published Spiral Bound, a collection of poetry and prose. In 2015, Dessa partnered with Rain Taxi on a poetry chapbook titled A Pound of Steam. On the strength of that collection, a New York literary agent telephoned; within a few years, Dutton Books (Penguin Random House) published her first book-length collection of essays, My Own Devices: True Stories from the Road on Music, Science, and Senseless Love, named one of the best books of 2018 by both NPR and Amazon. She also became a frequent radio contributor: on behalf of Minnesota Public Radio, she's interviewed best-selling authors in front of live audiences (most recently talking with Michael Pollan about his exploration into psychedelic drugs). At WNYC's The Greene Space, she served as Artist in Residence, designing a series called HEARTBREAKERS that investigated research on love, sex and determinism with both scientists and musicians.
In recent years, Dessa partnered with the Grammy-winning Minnesota Orchestra to stage six sold-out performances at Minneapolis's Orchestra Hall (all arranged by composer/musician Andy Thompson and conducted by Sarah Hicks). The Minnesota Orchestra and Dessa cut a live record together in March of 2019, Sound the Bells: Recorded Live at Orchestra Hall, slated for release in November of 2019.
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