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Joe Kowan: How I beat stage fright
Joe Kowan: Kako sam pobijedio tremu
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Istančan osjećaj straha je dobro služio ljudima kao mladim vrstama da bi izbjegli zvjeri s kojima smo se takmičili. Ali to je manje divno kada se osjećaj straha unutar tijela aktivira ispred 20 fanova folk muzike tokom otvorenog mikrofona utorkom uvečer. Dlanovi se znoje, ruke se tresu, vid se magli, a mozak govori BJEŽI: to je trema. U ovom šarmantnom harmoničnom malom govoru, Joe Kowan govori kako je pobijedio tremu.
Joe Kowan - Musician and graphic designer
By day he's a graphic designer, and by night Joe Kowan is a quirky folk singer-songwriter. Full bio
By day he's a graphic designer, and by night Joe Kowan is a quirky folk singer-songwriter. Full bio
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00:12
Joe Kowan: I have stage fright.
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Joe Kowan: Imam tremu.
00:14
I've always had stage fright,
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Uvijek sam imao tremu,
00:15
and not just a little bit,
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ne samo malkice,
00:17
it's a big bit.
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već puno.
00:19
And it didn't even matter until I was 27.
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Sve do 27 godine to nije bilo važno.
00:21
That's when I started writing songs, and even then
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Tada sam počeo pisati pjesme. Čak i tada
00:24
I only played them for myself.
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svirao sam ih samo za sebe.
00:26
Just knowing my roommates were in the
same house made me uncomfortable.
same house made me uncomfortable.
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Činjenica da su moji cimeri
u istoj kući činila me je nervoznim.
u istoj kući činila me je nervoznim.
00:30
But after a couple of years,
just writing songs wasn't enough.
just writing songs wasn't enough.
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Ali nakon 2 godine, samo
pisanje pjesama nije bilo dovoljno.
pisanje pjesama nije bilo dovoljno.
00:32
I had all these stories and ideas,
and I wanted to share them with people,
and I wanted to share them with people,
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Imao sam priče i
ideje koje sam želio podijeliti,
ideje koje sam želio podijeliti,
00:35
but physiologically, I couldn't do it.
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ali nisam mogao psihološki.
00:39
I had this irrational fear.
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Imao sam iracionalni strah.
00:42
But the more I wrote, and the more I practiced,
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Ali što sam više pisao i vježbao
to sam više želio da nastupam.
00:44
the more I wanted to perform.
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00:45
So on the week of my 30th birthday,
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U sedmici na moj 30-ti rođendan,
00:47
I decided I was going to go to this local open mic,
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odlučio sam da odem
na lokalni otvoreni mikrofon,
na lokalni otvoreni mikrofon,
00:50
and put this fear behind me.
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i da ostavim ovaj strah iza sebe.
00:52
Well, when I got there, it was packed.
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Kada sam došao, bilo je krcato.
00:55
There were like 20 people there.
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Bilo je oko 20 ljudi.
00:57
(Laughter)
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(Smijeh)
00:58
And they all looked angry.
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I svi su izgledali ljuti.
01:01
But I took a deep breath, and I signed up to play,
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Ali duboko sam udahnuo, i prijavio se,
01:05
and I felt pretty good.
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i dobro sam se osjećao.
01:06
Pretty good, until about 10 minutes before my turn,
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Sve do nekih 10 minuta prije mog nastupa,
01:09
when my whole body rebelled, and
this wave of anxiety just washed over me.
this wave of anxiety just washed over me.
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kada se moje cijelo tijelo pobunilo
i kada me je zapljusnuo val nervoze.
i kada me je zapljusnuo val nervoze.
01:15
Now, when you experience fear,
your sympathetic nervous system kicks in.
your sympathetic nervous system kicks in.
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Kada iskusite strah, vaš
simpatički nervni sistem se aktivira.
simpatički nervni sistem se aktivira.
01:18
So you have a rush of adrenaline,
your heart rate increases,
your heart rate increases,
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Adrenalin navali, srce ubrzano kuca,
01:21
your breathing gets faster.
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disanje postane ubrazno.
01:23
Next your non-essential systems start
to shut down, like digestion. (Laughter)
to shut down, like digestion. (Laughter)
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Zatim vaši nevažni sistemi
počinju da se gase, kao probava.
počinju da se gase, kao probava.
01:29
So your mouth gets dry, and blood is routed
away from your extremities,
away from your extremities,
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Usta postanu suha,
krv zaobilazi vaše udove,
krv zaobilazi vaše udove,
01:32
so your fingers don't work anymore.
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tako da vaši prsti više ne rade.
01:35
Your pupils dilate, your muscles contract,
your Spidey sense tingles,
your Spidey sense tingles,
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Vaše zjenice se rašire, mišići se
grče, osjećate da nešto nije u redu,
grče, osjećate da nešto nije u redu,
01:38
basically your whole body is trigger-happy.
(Laughter)
(Laughter)
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u suštini, vaše cijelo tijelo
je spremno da puca. (Smijeh)
je spremno da puca. (Smijeh)
01:43
That condition is not conducive
to performing folk music.
to performing folk music.
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Takvo stanje nije pogodno
za izvođenje folk muzike.
za izvođenje folk muzike.
01:48
(Laughter)
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(Smijeh)
01:49
I mean, your nervous system is an idiot.
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Vaš nervni sistem je idiot.
01:52
Really? Two hundred thousand years of human evolution, and it still can't tell the difference
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Stvarno? 2000 godina ljudske evolucije
i ono i dalje ne može da razlikuje
i ono i dalje ne može da razlikuje
01:56
between a saber tooth tiger and 20 folksingers
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sabljozubog tigra od 20 folk pjevača
01:58
on a Tuesday night open mic?
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na otvorenom mikrofonu utorkom navečer?
02:00
(Laughter)
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(Smijeh)
02:02
I have never been more terrified -- until now.
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Nikad nisam bio više
prestravljen nego sada.
prestravljen nego sada.
02:06
(Laughter and cheers)
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(Smijeh i pljesak)
02:15
So then it was my turn,
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Došao je red na mene,
02:17
and somehow, I get myself onto
the stage, I start my song,
the stage, I start my song,
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i nekako sam se popeo
na binu i počeo svoju pjesmu,
na binu i počeo svoju pjesmu,
02:20
I open my mouth to sing the first line,
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otvorio sam usta da otpjevam prvi stih,
02:23
and this completely horrible vibrato --
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i potpuno užasan vibrato --
ono kada vam glas počinje
treperiti -- počinje izlaziti.
treperiti -- počinje izlaziti.
02:25
you know, when your voice wavers --
comes streaming out.
comes streaming out.
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02:27
And this is not the good kind of vibrato,
like an opera singer has,
like an opera singer has,
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Ovo nije dobra vrsta
vibrata, kao kod operskih pjevača,
vibrata, kao kod operskih pjevača,
02:30
this is my whole body just convulsing with fear.
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ovo je moje cijelo
tijelo koje se grči od straha.
tijelo koje se grči od straha.
02:33
I mean, it's a nightmare.
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To je noćna mora.
02:34
I'm embarrassed, the audience
is clearly uncomfortable,
is clearly uncomfortable,
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Stid me je, a publici je očito neugodno,
02:37
they're focused on my discomfort.
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fokusirali su se na moju nelagodu.
02:39
It was so bad.
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To je bilo tako loše.
02:43
But that was my first real experience
as a solo singer-songwriter.
as a solo singer-songwriter.
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To je bilo moje prvo pravo iskustvo
kao samostalni pjevač i kantautor.
kao samostalni pjevač i kantautor.
02:47
And something good did happen --
I had the tiniest little glimpse
I had the tiniest little glimpse
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Ali nešto dobro se
ipak desilo -- vidio sam tračak
ipak desilo -- vidio sam tračak
02:50
of that audience connection that I was hoping for.
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povezanosti sa
publikom kojem sam se nadao.
publikom kojem sam se nadao.
02:52
And I wanted more. But I knew
I had to get past this nervousness.
I had to get past this nervousness.
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Želio sam više. Ali znao sam
da moram prevazići ovu nervozu.
da moram prevazići ovu nervozu.
02:56
That night I promised myself:
I would go back every week
I would go back every week
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Te noći obećao sam
sebi: Vraćat ću se svake sedmice
sebi: Vraćat ću se svake sedmice
03:00
until I wasn't nervous anymore.
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dok više ne budem nervozan.
03:02
And I did. I went back every single week,
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I tako sam uradio.
Vraćao sam se svake sedmice,
Vraćao sam se svake sedmice,
03:04
and sure enough, week after week,
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i zaista, sedmicu za sedmicu,
03:08
it didn't get any better. The same
thing happened every week. (Laughter)
thing happened every week. (Laughter)
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ništa nije bilo bolje. Svake
sedmice dešavalo se isto. (Smijeh)
sedmice dešavalo se isto. (Smijeh)
Nisam se mogao boriti protiv toga.
03:12
I couldn't shake it.
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03:14
And that's when I had an epiphany.
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I tu tom trenutku
imao sam otkrovenje.
imao sam otkrovenje.
03:16
And I remember it really well, because I
don't have a lot of epiphanies. (Laughter)
don't have a lot of epiphanies. (Laughter)
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Sjećam se dobro jer nemam
puno takvih iskustava. (Smijeh)
puno takvih iskustava. (Smijeh)
03:22
All I had to do was write a song
that exploits my nervousness.
that exploits my nervousness.
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Sve što sam trebao uraditi
jeste napisati pjesmu o svojoj nervozi.
jeste napisati pjesmu o svojoj nervozi.
To se čini vjerodostojno
samo kada imam tremu,
samo kada imam tremu,
03:26
That only seems authentic when I have stage fright,
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03:28
and the more nervous I was,
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i što sam nervozniji,
03:29
the better the song would be. Easy.
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to će pjesma biti bolja. Jednostavno.
03:32
So I started writing a song about having stage fright.
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Tako sam počeo pisati pjesmu o tremi.
03:36
First, fessing up to the problem,
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Prvo, priznati problem,
fizička ispoljavanja, kako bi se osjećao,
03:39
the physical manifestations, how I would feel,
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03:40
how the listener might feel.
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kako bi se slušalac osjećao.
03:42
And then accounting for things like my shaky voice,
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Zatim objasniti stvari
kako što je drhtajući glas,
kako što je drhtajući glas,
03:44
and I knew I would be singing about a
half-octave higher than normal,
half-octave higher than normal,
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i znao sam da ću pjevati
za pola oktave više nego obično,
za pola oktave više nego obično,
03:47
because I was nervous.
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zato što sam nervozan.
03:49
By having a song that explained
what was happening to me,
what was happening to me,
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Pjevajući pjesmu koja
objašnjava šta mi se dešava
objašnjava šta mi se dešava
u tom trenutku,
03:53
while it was happening,
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dalo je publici
priliku da razmisli o tome.
priliku da razmisli o tome.
03:54
that gave the audience permission to think about it.
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03:56
They didn't have to feel bad
for me because I was nervous,
for me because I was nervous,
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Nisu morali me sažaljevati zbog nervoze.
Oni su to mogli
iskusiti zajedno sa mnom,
iskusiti zajedno sa mnom,
03:59
they could experience that with me,
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04:00
and we were all one big happy, nervous,
uncomfortable family. (Laughter)
uncomfortable family. (Laughter)
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i svi smo bili jedna velika sretna,
nervozna porodica. (Smijeh)
nervozna porodica. (Smijeh)
04:06
By thinking about my audience,
by embracing and exploiting my problem,
by embracing and exploiting my problem,
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Razmišljajući o svojoj publici,
suočavajući i iskorištavajući moj problem,
suočavajući i iskorištavajući moj problem,
04:10
I was able to take something
that was blocking my progress,
that was blocking my progress,
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ja sam mogao uzeti nešto
što sprečava moj napredak
što sprečava moj napredak
04:13
and turn it into something that
was essential for my success.
was essential for my success.
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i pretovoriti ga u nešto što
je neophodno za moj uspjeh.
je neophodno za moj uspjeh.
04:17
And having the stage fright song let
me get past that biggest issue
me get past that biggest issue
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Zbog pjesme o tremi na
bini prevazišao sam najveći problem
bini prevazišao sam najveći problem
odmah na početku izvedbe.
04:20
right in the beginning of a performance.
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04:22
And then I could move on,
and play the rest of my songs
and play the rest of my songs
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Mogao sam nastaviti
svirati ostatak svojih pjesama
svirati ostatak svojih pjesama
04:24
with just a little bit more ease.
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sa malo većom lakoćom.
04:27
And eventually, over time, I didn't
have to play the stage fright song at all.
have to play the stage fright song at all.
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Vremenom više nisam
morao svirati tu pjesmu.
morao svirati tu pjesmu.
04:33
Except for when I was really
nervous, like now. (Laughter)
nervous, like now. (Laughter)
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Osim kada sam stvarno
nervozan, kao sada. (Smijeh)
nervozan, kao sada. (Smijeh)
04:40
Would it be okay if I played the
stage fright song for you?
stage fright song for you?
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Je li uredu da odsviram
pjesmu o tremi za vas?
pjesmu o tremi za vas?
04:43
(Applause)
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(Aplauz)
04:52
Can I have a sip of water?
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Mogu li dobiti vode?
04:55
(Music)
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(Muzika)
05:00
Thank you.
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Hvala.
05:07
♫ I'm not joking, you know, ♫
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♫ Ne šalim se, znate, ♫
05:10
♫ this stage fright is real. ♫
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♫ ova trema je stvarna. ♫
05:15
♫ And if I'm up here trembling and singing, ♫
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♫ Ako se ovdje tresem i pjevam, ♫
05:19
♫ well, you'll know how I feel. ♫
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♫ znate kako se osjećam. ♫
05:23
♫ And the mistake I'd be making, ♫
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♫ Greške koje pravim, ♫
05:27
♫ the tremolo caused by my whole body shaking. ♫
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♫ treperav zvuk zbog mog
cijelog tijela što se trese. ♫
cijelog tijela što se trese. ♫
05:31
♫ As you sit there feeling embarrassed for me, ♫
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♫ Dok vi sjedite tu i
stidite se zbog mene, ♫
stidite se zbog mene, ♫
05:34
♫ well, you don't have to be. ♫
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♫ pa, ne morate. ♫
05:37
♫ Well, maybe just a little bit. ♫
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♫ Dobro, možda samo malo. ♫
05:40
(Laughter)
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(Smijeh)
05:41
♫ And maybe I'll try to imagine
you all without clothes. ♫
you all without clothes. ♫
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♫ Možda ću vas zamisliti bez odjeće. ♫
05:49
♫ But singing in front of all naked strangers
scares me more than anyone knows. ♫
scares me more than anyone knows. ♫
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♫ Ali pjevanje ispred nagih
stranaca plaši me više. ♫
stranaca plaši me više. ♫
05:57
♫ Not to discuss this at length, ♫
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♫ Da ne pričam nadugo, ♫
06:01
♫ but my body image was never my strength. ♫
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♫ ali moje tijelo nikada
nije bila moja jača strana. ♫
nije bila moja jača strana. ♫
06:06
♫ So frankly, I wish that you all would get dressed, ♫
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♫ Iskreno, volio bih da se svi obučete, ♫
06:10
♫ I mean, you're not even really naked. ♫
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♫ mislim, niste zapravo nagi. ♫
06:15
♫ And I'm the one with the problem. ♫
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♫ Ja sam onaj koji ima problem. ♫
06:18
♫ And you tell me, don't worry
so much, you'll be great. ♫
so much, you'll be great. ♫
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♫ Recite mi, ne brini
puno, bićeš odličan. ♫
puno, bićeš odličan. ♫
06:25
♫ But I'm the one living with me ♫
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♫ Ali ja sam taj koji živi sa sobom ♫
06:28
♫ and I know how I get. ♫
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♫ znam kakav budem. ♫
06:30
♫ Your advice is gentle but late. ♫
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♫ Vaš savjet je
velikodušan, ali je zakasnio. ♫
velikodušan, ali je zakasnio. ♫
06:35
♫ If not just a bit patronizing. ♫
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♫ Ako ne malo snishodljiv. ♫
06:38
♫ And that sarcastic tone doesn't
help me when I sing. ♫
help me when I sing. ♫
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♫ A taj sarkastični ton
mi ne pomaže kada pjevam. ♫
mi ne pomaže kada pjevam. ♫
06:43
♫ But we shouldn't talk about
these things right now, ♫
these things right now, ♫
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♫ Ali nećemo o tome sada, ♫
06:47
♫ really, I'm up on stage, and
you're in the crowd. Hi. ♫
you're in the crowd. Hi. ♫
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♫ stvarno, ja sam na bini,
a vi ste u publici. Zdravo. ♫
a vi ste u publici. Zdravo. ♫
06:54
♫ And I'm not making fun of
unnurtured, irrrational fear, ♫
unnurtured, irrrational fear, ♫
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♫ Ne ismijavam njegovan,
racionalan strah, ♫
racionalan strah, ♫
07:03
♫ and if I wasn't ready to face this, ♫
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♫ da nisam spreman da se suočim s ovim, ♫
07:06
♫ I sure as hell wouldn't be here. ♫
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♫ ne bih bio ovdje. ♫
07:10
♫ But if I belt one note out clearly, ♫
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♫ Ali ako jasno zapjevam jednu notu, ♫
07:15
♫ you'll know I'm recovering slowly but surely. ♫
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♫ znajte da se lagano ali
sigurno oporavljam. ♫
sigurno oporavljam. ♫
07:20
♫ And maybe next week, I'll set my guitar ringin' ♫
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♫ Sljedeće sedmice moja
gitara će možda početi svirati, ♫
gitara će možda početi svirati, ♫
07:24
♫ my voice clear as water, and everyone singin'. ♫
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♫ moj glas će biti jasan,
a svi će pjevati. ♫
a svi će pjevati. ♫
07:28
♫ But probably I'll just get up and start groovin', ♫
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♫ Vjerovatno ću ustati i početi plesati, ♫
07:32
♫ my vocal cords movin', ♫
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♫ a moje glasnice će biti, ♫
07:35
♫ at speeds slightly faster than sound. ♫
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♫ malo brže od zvuka. ♫
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ABOUT THE SPEAKER
Joe Kowan - Musician and graphic designerBy day he's a graphic designer, and by night Joe Kowan is a quirky folk singer-songwriter.
Why you should listen
Joe Kowan is a Boston-based musician and graphic designer who has been struggling with stage fright since he first started writing songs at age 27. Despite his adorably expressed fears, he charms audiences with his own style of quirky folk and acoustic hip-hop, by turns poignant, salacious and comical. In 2009 he released the gangsta' arts and crafts video for his original song “Crafty,” and in 2011 he was a finalist in the USA Songwriting Competition.
Kowan is a senior graphic designer on State Street Global Marketing’s Brand Strategy team. With a BFA in sculpture and design, his work explores diverse areas of design including scenic, print, environmental design and wayfinding.
Joe Kowan | Speaker | TED.com