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Christen Reighter: I don't want children -- stop telling me I'll change my mind
Christen Reighter: Ne želim djecu - prestanite mi govoriti da ću se predomisliti
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Jedna od pet žena u SAD-u neće imati biološko dijete i Christen Reighter jedna je od njih. Od malih nogu znala je da ne želi imati djecu, unatoč mnogim ljudima (uključujući i njezinog liječnika) koji su inzistirali i govorili joj da će promijeniti mišljenje. U ovom snažnom govoru dijeli svoju priču o pokušaju kirurške sterilizacije i zaključuje da je majčinstvo samo produžetak ženstvenosti, a ne definicija.
Christen Reighter - Poet, essayist
Christen Reighter writes and performs as a poet and essayist, focusing primarily on social justice issues. Full bio
Christen Reighter writes and performs as a poet and essayist, focusing primarily on social justice issues. Full bio
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00:12
I recognized the roles
that were placed on me very early.
that were placed on me very early.
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Vrlo rano sam prepoznala
uloge koje su mi nametnute.
uloge koje su mi nametnute.
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One persistent concept that I observed --
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Ono što sam primijetila je
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existing in our language, in our media --
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da se u našem jeziku i medijima
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was that women are not only
supposed to have children,
supposed to have children,
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od žena očekuje ne samo
da moraju imati djecu,
da moraju imati djecu,
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they are supposed to want to.
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već i da žele imati djecu.
00:32
This existed everywhere.
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To je svugdje prisutno.
00:34
It existed in the ways
that adults spoke to me
that adults spoke to me
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Prisutno je u načinu
na koji su mi se odrasli obraćali
na koji su mi se odrasli obraćali
00:38
when they posed questions
in the context of "when."
in the context of "when."
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kada su pitanja počinjali s "kada".
00:43
"When you get married ..."
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"Kada se udaš..."
00:45
"When you have kids ..."
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"Kada imaš djecu..."
00:48
And these future musings
were always presented to me
were always presented to me
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Takva razmišljanja predstavljaju se
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like part of this American dream,
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kao dio "američkog sna",
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but it always felt to me
like someone else's dream.
like someone else's dream.
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ali meni su se uvijek činila
kao dio nečijeg tuđeg sna.
kao dio nečijeg tuđeg sna.
00:57
You see, a value that I have
always understood about myself
always understood about myself
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Vidite, ono što sam oduvijek znala o sebi
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was that I never wanted children.
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je da nikada ne želim imati djecu.
01:04
And as a kid, when I would try
to explain this,
to explain this,
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Kad sam bila dijete,
često bi mi se smijali
često bi mi se smijali
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this disconnect between
their roles and my values,
their roles and my values,
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kada bih pokušala objasniti to neslaganje
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they often laughed
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nametnutih uloga i mojih stavova,
01:14
in the way that adults do
at the absurdities of children.
at the absurdities of children.
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onako kako se odrasli
smiju dječjim izjavama.
smiju dječjim izjavama.
01:18
And they would tell me knowingly,
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I svjesno bi mi govorili,
01:20
"You'll change your mind."
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"Predomislit ćeš se."
01:23
And people have been saying
things like that to me my whole life.
things like that to me my whole life.
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I ljudi mi cijelog života
govore takve stvari.
govore takve stvari.
01:27
Otherwise polite conversation
can turn intrusive fast.
can turn intrusive fast.
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Naizgled pristojan razgovor vrlo brzo
može početi narušavati privatnost.
može početi narušavati privatnost.
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"Does your husband know?"
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"Zna li tvoj muž?"
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(Laughter)
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(Smijeh)
01:37
"Do your parents know?"
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"Znaju li tvoji roditelji?"
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(Laughter)
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(Smijeh)
01:41
"Don't you want a family?"
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"Zar ne želiš imati obitelj?"
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"Don't you want to leave anything behind?"
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"Zar ne želiš nešto ostaviti
iza sebe kada odeš?"
iza sebe kada odeš?"
01:48
And the primary buzzword
when discussing childlessness,
when discussing childlessness,
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A najčešća poštapalica
kada se radi o životu bez djece je
kada se radi o životu bez djece je
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"That's selfish."
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"To je sebično."
01:59
There are countless reasons
a woman may have
a woman may have
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Žena može imati mnogo razloga
02:02
for choosing to abstain from motherhood,
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zbog kojih odluči da ne želi imati djecu,
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the majority of them
not self-prioritizing.
not self-prioritizing.
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a većina njih nije sebična.
02:10
But it is still socially acceptable
to publicly vilify women as such,
to publicly vilify women as such,
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No, društveno je prihvatljivo
ogovarati žene,
ogovarati žene,
02:14
because none of these reasons
have made it into the social narrative.
have made it into the social narrative.
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jer nijedan od ovih razloga
nije dio društvenog sustava.
nije dio društvenog sustava.
02:18
When I was little and learning
about the inevitability of maternity,
about the inevitability of maternity,
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Kao djevojčici koja uči
o neizbježnosti majčinstva,
o neizbježnosti majčinstva,
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it was never explained to me
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nikada mi nisu objasnili
02:25
the commonness of these factors
that women consider,
that women consider,
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obilježja svih faktora koje
žene moraju uzeti u obzir,
žene moraju uzeti u obzir,
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like the risk of passing on
hereditary illness,
hereditary illness,
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poput rizika da dalje
prenesu nasljednu bolest,
prenesu nasljednu bolest,
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the danger of having to stop
life-saving medication
life-saving medication
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opasnosti ako prekinu uzimati lijek
od životne važnosti
od životne važnosti
02:37
for the duration of your pregnancy,
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za vrijeme trudnoće,
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concern about overpopulation,
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brige oko prenaseljenosti,
02:41
your access to resources,
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pristup resursima
02:44
and the fact that there are
415,000 children
415,000 children
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i činjenice da je u SAD-u 415 000 djece
02:49
in the foster-care system
in the United States at any given time.
in the United States at any given time.
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u sustavu udomiteljstva.
02:54
Reasons like these, many more,
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Razlozi poput ovih i mnogi drugi
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and the fact that I don't like to leave
things of this magnitude to chance,
things of this magnitude to chance,
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te činjenica da ne želim
nešto tako važno prepustiti sreći,
nešto tako važno prepustiti sreći,
03:03
all informed my decision
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samo su poduprli moju odluku
03:06
to become surgically sterilized.
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da napravim kiruršku sterilizaciju.
03:09
I began my research eagerly.
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Željno sam započela s istraživanjem.
03:12
I wanted to fully understand
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Htjela sam u potpunosti razumijeti
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all that was going to come
with undergoing a tubal ligation,
with undergoing a tubal ligation,
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sve što je vezano uz tubalnu ligaciju,
03:19
which is just another word
for getting your tubes tied.
for getting your tubes tied.
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što je samo još jedan izraz
za podvezivanje jajnika.
za podvezivanje jajnika.
03:22
I wanted to know approval to aftermath,
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Željela sam znati posljedice,
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satisfaction rates, risks, statistics.
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postotak uspješnosti, rizike, statistiku.
03:30
And at first, I was empowered.
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Prvo sam se osjećala osnaženom.
03:32
You see, the way the narrative
has always been taught to me,
has always been taught to me,
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Vidite, zbog onoga
što su mi stalno govorili
što su mi stalno govorili
03:36
I would have thought that women
who didn't want children were so rare,
who didn't want children were so rare,
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mislila sam da su rijetke žene
koje ne žele imati djecu,
koje ne žele imati djecu,
03:40
and then I learned
one in five American women
one in five American women
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a onda sam saznala da 1 od 5 Amerikanki
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won't be having a biological child --
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neće imati biološko dijete --
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some by choice, some by chance.
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neke jer ne žele, neke jer ne mogu.
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(Applause)
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(Pljesak)
03:50
But I was not alone.
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No, nisam bila jedina.
03:55
But the more I read,
the more disheartened I became.
the more disheartened I became.
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Što sam više čitala,
postajala sam više obeshrabrena.
postajala sam više obeshrabrena.
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I read women's stories,
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Čitala sam priče žena
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trying desperately to get this procedure.
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koje su očajnički željele
obaviti taj zahvat.
obaviti taj zahvat.
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I learned how common it was
for women to exhaust their finances
for women to exhaust their finances
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Saznala sam koliko često
žene potroše mnogo novca
žene potroše mnogo novca
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appealing to dozens of ob-gyns
over many years,
over many years,
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na desetke ginekologa,
kroz dugi niz godina,
kroz dugi niz godina,
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only to be turned down so many times,
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samo kako bi ih na kraju često odbili
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often with such blatant disrespect
that they just gave up.
that they just gave up.
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i odnosili se prema njima
s nepoštovanjem pa bi one odustale.
s nepoštovanjem pa bi one odustale.
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Women reported that medical practitioners
were often condescending
were often condescending
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Žene govore kako su liječnici
uglavnom bili arogantni
uglavnom bili arogantni
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and dismissive of their motivations,
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i nezainteresirani za njihove razloge
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being told things like,
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te su im često govorili stvari poput,
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"Come back when you're married
with a child."
with a child."
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"Vratite se kada se udate
i rodite dijete."
i rodite dijete."
04:40
But women who did have children,
who went to go get this procedure,
who went to go get this procedure,
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No, i ženama koje su već imale djecu
i željele napraviti taj zahvat
i željele napraviti taj zahvat
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were told they were too young,
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rečeno je da su premlade
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or they didn't have enough children,
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ili da nisu imale dovoljno djece,
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which is very interesting,
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što je jako zanimljivo,
04:53
because the legal requirements in my state
for getting this kind of surgery were,
for getting this kind of surgery were,
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jer su pravni uvjeti za ovaj zahvat
u mojoj državi glasili:
u mojoj državi glasili:
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"Be at least 21 years old,"
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"Imajte barem 21 godinu,"
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"appear of sound mind,
acting of your own accord,"
acting of your own accord,"
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"Budite razboriti, djelujte
svjesno i bez prisile"
svjesno i bez prisile"
05:06
and "have a 30-day waiting period."
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i "pričekajte 30 dana."
05:10
And I was perplexed that I could meet
all of these legal requirements
all of these legal requirements
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Zbunilo me to što bih ispunila
sve te pravne uvjete
sve te pravne uvjete
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and still have to face a battle
in the exam room
in the exam room
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i još uvijek se morala
boriti s ispitivanjima
boriti s ispitivanjima
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for my bodily autonomy.
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vezanima uz moje tijelo.
05:21
And it was daunting,
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Bio je zastrašujuće,
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but I was determined.
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ali bila sam odlučna.
05:26
I remember I dressed so professionally
to that first appointment.
to that first appointment.
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Sjećam se da sam se obukla jako
profesionalno za taj prvi razgovor.
profesionalno za taj prvi razgovor.
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(Laughter)
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(Smijeh)
05:33
I sat up straight.
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Sjedila sam uspravno.
05:34
I spoke clearly.
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Razgovjetno sam govorila.
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I wanted to give that doctor
every piece of evidence
every piece of evidence
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Željela sam dokazati tom liječniku
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that I was not the date
of birth in that file.
of birth in that file.
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da nisam samo datum rođenja u dosjeu.
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And I made sure to mention things like,
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I pobrinula sam se
da spomenem stvari poput,
da spomenem stvari poput,
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"I just got my bachelor's degree
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"Upravo sam diplomirala
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and I'm applying
to these doctoral programs,
to these doctoral programs,
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i prijavljujem se za doktorski studij,
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I'm going to study these things."
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studirat ću ovo."
05:55
And "my long-term partner
has this kind of business,"
has this kind of business,"
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I "moj partner se bavi tim i tim poslom,"
05:59
and "I've done research
on this for months.
on this for months.
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i "mjesecima sam istraživala o ovome.
06:03
I understand everything
about it, all the risks."
about it, all the risks."
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Razumijem sve o tome, svjesna sam rizika."
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Because I needed the doctor to know
that this was not a whim,
that this was not a whim,
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Željela sam da liječnik zna
da ovo nije neki hir,
da ovo nije neki hir,
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not reactionary,
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nije nešto impulzivno,
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not your 20-something
looking to go out and party
looking to go out and party
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kao neka 20-godišnjakinja
koja se želi zabavljati,
koja se želi zabavljati,
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without fear of getting knocked up ...
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bez straha da će zatrudnjeti...
06:17
(Laughter)
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(Smijeh)
06:19
that this supported something
integral to who I was.
integral to who I was.
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ovo je sastavni dio moje osobnosti.
06:25
And I understand informed consent,
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Znam što je informirani pristanak
06:26
so I fully expected to be reeducated
on how it all worked, but ...
on how it all worked, but ...
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i očekivala sam da će me dodatno
podučiti kako to sve funkcionira, ali...
podučiti kako to sve funkcionira, ali...
06:34
At one point, the information being
given to me started to feel agenda'd,
given to me started to feel agenda'd,
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Odjednom su informacije koje sam
dobivala postajale pristrane,
dobivala postajale pristrane,
06:39
interlaced with bias
and inflated statistics.
and inflated statistics.
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pomiješane s predrasudama
i prenapuhanom statistikom.
i prenapuhanom statistikom.
06:45
The questions began to feel interrogative.
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Osjećala sam se kao da sam na ispitivanju.
06:49
At first they were asking me questions
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Prvo su mi postavljali pitanja
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that seemed to understand
my situation better,
my situation better,
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i činilo se da me pokušavaju razumjeti,
06:55
and then it seemed like they were
asking questions to try to trip me up.
asking questions to try to trip me up.
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no, zatim su me pitanjima
pokušali zbuniti.
pokušali zbuniti.
06:59
I felt like I was on the witness stand,
being cross-examined.
being cross-examined.
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Osjećala sam se kao da sam
u sudnici na ispitivanju.
u sudnici na ispitivanju.
07:04
The doctor asked me about my partner.
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Liječnik me pitao i za mog partnera.
07:07
"How does he or she
feel about all of this?"
feel about all of this?"
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"Što on ili ona misli o ovome?"
07:10
"Well, I've been with
the same man for five years,
the same man for five years,
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"Pa, s istim muškarcem sam već 5 godina
07:13
and he fully supports any decision
I make for my body."
I make for my body."
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i on potpuno podržava svaku
moju odluku o mom tijelu."
moju odluku o mom tijelu."
07:17
And he said, "Well,
what happens in the future,
what happens in the future,
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Zatim je rekao, "A što ako u budućnosti
07:19
if you change partners?
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promijenite partnera?
07:20
What happens when that person
wants children?"
wants children?"
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Što ako će ta osoba željeti djecu?"
07:24
And I didn't quite know
how to react to that,
how to react to that,
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Nisam znala kako točno reagirati
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because what I was hearing
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jer ono što sam čula je
07:30
was this doctor tell me that I'm supposed
to disregard everything I believe
to disregard everything I believe
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da mi ovaj liječnik govori da
moram zanemariti sve što vjerujem
moram zanemariti sve što vjerujem
07:37
if a partner demands children.
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ako partner zatraži da imamo djecu.
07:40
So I told him not to worry about that.
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Rekla sam mu da se
ne mora brinuti oko toga.
ne mora brinuti oko toga.
07:43
My stance on childbearing
has always been first date conversation.
has always been first date conversation.
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Svoj stav o trudnoći iznosim
odmah na prvom spoju.
odmah na prvom spoju.
07:47
(Laughter)
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(Smijeh)
07:53
(Cheering)
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(Klicanje)
07:54
(Laughter)
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(Smijeh)
07:59
He then asks me to consider
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Zatim me traži da razmislim o tome
08:03
how "in 20 years, you could really
come to regret this" ...
come to regret this" ...
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da bih "za 20 godina zaista
mogla požaliti"...
mogla požaliti"...
08:08
as though I hadn't.
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a već sam razmišljala o tome.
08:11
I told him,
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Rekla sam mu,
08:16
"OK, if I wake up one day
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"U redu, ako se jednog dana probudim
08:20
and realize, you know,
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i shvatim da sam trebala
08:23
I wish I'd made a different
decision back then,
decision back then,
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donijeti drugačiju odluku,
08:28
the truth is, I'd only removed
a single path to parenthood.
a single path to parenthood.
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zapravo sam uklonila samo jedan
način da postanem roditelj.
način da postanem roditelj.
08:32
I never needed biology
to form family anyway."
to form family anyway."
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Nikada mi nije trebala
biologija da osnujem obitelj.
biologija da osnujem obitelj.
08:36
(Applause)
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(Pljesak)
08:44
And I would much rather
deal with that any day
deal with that any day
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I radije bih se jednom suočila s time,
08:48
than deal with one day waking up,
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nego da se jednog dana probudim,
08:51
realize I'd had a child
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shvatim da imam dijete
08:55
that I didn't really want
or was prepared to care for.
or was prepared to care for.
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koje zapravo nisam željela ili
bila spremna brinuti se o njemu.
bila spremna brinuti se o njemu.
09:01
Because one of these affects only me.
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Jedno od ovoga utječe samo na mene.
09:04
The other affects a child,
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Drugo utječe na dijete,
09:07
their development, their well-being --
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njegov razvoj, njegovu dobrobit -
09:09
(Applause)
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09:13
and human beings
are not to be gambled with.
are not to be gambled with.
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a s ljudima se ne smije kockati.
09:18
He then tells me why no one
was going to approve this procedure,
was going to approve this procedure,
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Zatim mi je rekao zašto nitko
neće odobriti ovaj zahvat,
neće odobriti ovaj zahvat,
09:24
certainly not he,
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pogotovo ne on,
09:25
because of a concept
called medical paternalism,
called medical paternalism,
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zbog nečega što se zove
medicinski paternalizam,
medicinski paternalizam,
09:28
which allows him,
as my well-informed provider,
as my well-informed provider,
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koji mu dopušta da, kao osoba koja je
stručna i koja mi daje informacije,
stručna i koja mi daje informacije,
09:34
to make decisions for me ...
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umjesto mene donosi odluke
09:37
based on his perception
of my best interest,
of my best interest,
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na temelju onoga što on smatra
da je najbolje za mene,
da je najbolje za mene,
09:40
regardless of what I,
as the patient, want or believe.
as the patient, want or believe.
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bez obzira što ja, kao pacijentica,
želim ili vjerujem.
želim ili vjerujem.
09:44
He takes this opportunity to step out
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Iskoristio je priliku
da raspravi o mom slučaju s
mojim potencijalnim kirurgom
mojim potencijalnim kirurgom
09:47
and discuss my case
with my potential surgeon,
with my potential surgeon,
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09:51
and through the door, I hear him
describe me as a little girl.
describe me as a little girl.
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i kroz vrata sam ga čula
kako me opisuje kao djevojčicu.
kako me opisuje kao djevojčicu.
10:01
I was so offended.
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Bila sam toliko uvrijeđena.
10:03
I wanted to defend myself.
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Željela sam se obraniti.
10:05
I wanted to explicitly explain
to each one of these providers
to each one of these providers
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Željela sam jasno objasniti
svakome od njih
svakome od njih
10:09
how they were treating me,
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kako se odnose prema meni,
10:11
that it was belittling and sexist,
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da je to ponižavajuće
i seksističko ponašanje
i seksističko ponašanje
10:13
and I didn't have to take it.
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i da ja to ne moram trpjeti.
10:19
But I did take it.
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No, trpjela sam.
10:22
I swallowed every sharp word in my throat,
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Progutala sam svaku ružnu riječ,
10:26
clenched my jaw, and instead
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stisnula zube
10:29
answered each one of their condescending
questions and statements.
questions and statements.
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i odgovorila na svako njihovo
patronizirajuće pitanje i tvrdnju.
patronizirajuće pitanje i tvrdnju.
10:36
I had come here looking
for objectivity and support
for objectivity and support
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Došla sam tražeći objektivnost i podršku,
10:40
and instead I felt dismissed and silenced,
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a osjećala sam se odbačeno i ušutkano
10:44
and I hated myself for it.
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te sam se mrzila zbog toga.
10:46
I hated that I was letting people
disrespect me repeatedly.
disrespect me repeatedly.
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Mrzila sam što dopuštam da se prema meni
stalno odnose s nepoštovanjem.
stalno odnose s nepoštovanjem.
10:51
But this was my one shot.
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Ali, to mi je bila jedina prilika.
10:57
That was one of multiple consultations
that I had to go to.
that I had to go to.
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To je bilo samo jedno od mnogih
savjetovanja na koje sam morala ići.
savjetovanja na koje sam morala ići.
11:02
At one point, I had seen five or six
medical professionals in the same hour.
medical professionals in the same hour.
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Jednom sam razgovarala s 5 ili 6
liječnika u sat vremena.
liječnika u sat vremena.
11:07
The door to the exam room
felt more like the door to a clown car.
felt more like the door to a clown car.
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Činilo se kao da sam na kolodvoru.
11:11
There's my primary,
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Evo mog liječnika,
11:12
there's his colleague,
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evo njegovog kolege,
11:14
the director, OK.
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evo upravitelja, u redu.
11:17
It felt like I was asking them
to infect me with smallpox
to infect me with smallpox
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Kao da sam ih tražila
da me zaraze ospicama,
da me zaraze ospicama,
11:22
instead of, I don't know,
obtain birth control.
obtain birth control.
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a ne da mi omoguće kontracepciju.
11:28
But I didn't waver,
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No, nisam se pokolebala,
11:33
and I was persistent,
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bila sam uporna
11:35
and I eventually convinced one of them
to allow the procedure.
to allow the procedure.
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i konačno uvjerila jednog
od njih da mi dozvoli zahvat.
od njih da mi dozvoli zahvat.
11:42
And even as I am in the room,
signing the consent forms
signing the consent forms
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Čak i kad sam potpisivala obrasce,
11:48
and getting the hormone shots
and tying up loose ends ...
and tying up loose ends ...
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dobivala injekcije hormona
i sređivala ostalo,
i sređivala ostalo,
11:53
my doctor is shaking
his head in disapproval.
his head in disapproval.
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moj liječnik je odmahivao
glavom u znak neslaganja.
glavom u znak neslaganja.
11:59
"You'll change your mind."
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"Predomislit ćete se."
12:03
I never really understood
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Nikada mi nije bilo potpuno jasno
12:06
how strongly this society
clings to this role
clings to this role
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koliko se društvo čvrsto drži te uloge
12:11
until I went through this.
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dok nisam ovo prošla.
12:13
I experienced firsthand, repeatedly,
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Više puta sam iz prve ruke doživjela
12:20
how people, be it medical providers,
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kako ljudi, bilo liječnici,
12:26
colleagues, strangers,
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kolege ili stranci,
12:30
were literally unable
to separate me being a woman
to separate me being a woman
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nisu u mogućnosti
razlikovati mene kao ženu
razlikovati mene kao ženu
12:37
from me being a mother.
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i mene kao majku.
12:40
And I've always believed
that having children
that having children
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Uvijek sam vjerovala da je roditeljstvo
12:44
was an extension of womanhood,
not the definition.
not the definition.
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samo produžetak ženstvenosti,
a ne definicija.
a ne definicija.
12:48
I believe that a woman's value
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Vjerujem da se vrijednost žene
12:51
should never be determined
by whether or not she has a child,
by whether or not she has a child,
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nikada ne bi trebala mjeriti time
ima li ona dijete ili ne,
ima li ona dijete ili ne,
12:55
because that strips her
of her entire identity
of her entire identity
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jer to narušava njezin cijeli identitet
13:00
as an adult unto herself.
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kao odrasle osobe.
13:02
Women have this amazing ability
to create life,
to create life,
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Žene imaju nevjerojatnu
sposobnost da stvore život,
sposobnost da stvore život,
13:07
but when we say that that is her purpose,
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ali ako kažemo da je to ženina svrha,
13:11
that says that her entire existence
is a means to an end.
is a means to an end.
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to znači da je cijelo njezino postojanje
svedeno na to da je ona samo sredstvo.
svedeno na to da je ona samo sredstvo.
13:20
It's so easy to forget the roles
that society places on us
that society places on us
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Lako je zaboraviti da su uloge
koje nam društvo nameće
koje nam društvo nameće
13:25
are so much more than mere titles.
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mnogo više od običnih titula.
13:27
What about the weight
that comes with them,
that comes with them,
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Što je s teretom koji dolazi s njima,
13:30
the pressure to conform
to these standards ...
to these standards ...
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s pritiskom da se
prilagodimo tim standardima,
prilagodimo tim standardima,
13:33
the fear associated with questioning them,
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sa strahom da ih preispitamo
13:36
and the desires that we
cast aside to accept them?
cast aside to accept them?
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i željama kojih se odričemo
kako bismo ih prihvatili?
kako bismo ih prihvatili?
13:40
There are many paths
to happiness and fulfillment.
to happiness and fulfillment.
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Mnogo je načina da se
postigne sreća i ispunjenje.
postigne sreća i ispunjenje.
13:44
They all look very different,
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Svi izgledaju veoma različito,
13:46
but I believe that every one
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ali vjerujem da je svaki od njih
13:50
is paved with the right
to self-determination.
to self-determination.
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povezan s pravom na samoodređenje.
13:57
I want women to know that your choice
to embrace or forego motherhood
to embrace or forego motherhood
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Želim da žene znaju da vaš izbor da
prihvatite ili se suzdržite majčinstva
prihvatite ili se suzdržite majčinstva
14:06
is not in any way tied
to your worthiness or identity
to your worthiness or identity
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nije nikako povezan s
vašom vrijednošću ili identitetom
vašom vrijednošću ili identitetom
14:10
as spouses, as adults, or as women ...
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kao partnerice, odrasle osobe ili žene
14:15
and there absolutely is
a choice behind maternity,
a choice behind maternity,
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i svakako postoji izbor
kod pitanja majčinstva
kod pitanja majčinstva
14:20
and it is yours
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i to je vaš izbor
14:22
and yours alone.
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i samo vaš.
14:23
Thank you.
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Hvala vam.
14:24
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(Pljesak)
ABOUT THE SPEAKER
Christen Reighter - Poet, essayistChristen Reighter writes and performs as a poet and essayist, focusing primarily on social justice issues.
Why you should listen
Christen Reighter's primary advocacy platform is for the childfree-choice. She often writes and speaks out about her experience obtaining elective sterilization at age 22, including how she encountered and confronted harassing societal prejudice, condescending medical paternalism, and civil rights violations. Her other writing and advocacy work includes LGBTQIA+ rights, gender equality, sex-positivity, women's issues (including sexual assault) and mental health issues and recovery.
Reighter is also an award-winning spoken word artist. she has competed and performed across the country and in international competitions such "Brave New Voices" on on HBO.
Originally born and raised in Texas, Reighter now lives happily in beautiful Colorado with her partner and their three rambunctious cats, and she currently is finishing her MA in clinical mental health counseling.
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